15 April 2010
My Thursday Thankfulness idea was supposed to make the whole blogging thing a little easier. I thought that if I had a topic the subject would come easier. Instead it sometimes makes things a little bit more difficult. I have been thinking all day about faith and writing about that as my thankfulness. In fact I have started and stopped writing about it about 5 times already. I haven't been able to put it into the correct words. It somehow feels fake or wrong and I'm not sure why. I think about it easily, but trying to put the words down on page is much different. And so, I will make this a short post.
I am thankful for my faith. I am thankful that when I wander, struggle, argue, and don't behave the way that I should I am able to return and that I am welcomed and loved and forgiven and accepted and soothed. I am thankful for that peace and the knowledge that I don't have to be perfect, it's not expected but it's expected in the attempt. I am thankful that I can now have this venue to express myself and to make me stop and think and breathe and that I can acknowledge aspects of myself that I don't tend to discuss with people. I am thankful that I can learn and grow in my faith and that I can accept my faults and my hardships and learn from them because of it.
I hope that all my friends feel comfortable in this setting to express what they believe or don't, that they feel love and safety and the strength of camaraderie. I hope that you are all thankful for something and that it brings you the same peace and warmth and love that I find in my faith as a Christian.
Love to you all,